did you ever feel how hard is it to leave someone you love? (specificaly im not talking about boys ok .. im talking about friends..)
so long my dad works in some place where every 2/3 years he will work out from this country for 3/4 years approx. idk...i went to a lot of country before but I loved thailand i miss living there..(since that's the only place i remember being there :s)
So i just got back from school (5th september 2012) and my mom suddenly said .if we go out again you're going to go to college in the country we will go . so i was like .. why is she saying this..so i asked ,why do you ask this? .and she said that my dad got gossips that he's going to berlin probably this year or next year..
I was in a moment of silence for real..because a couple of years ago he also got gossips he'll be going to berlin and it was real but it got cancelled cause he got promoted (moment of happiness)
Back to the story..so then i asked when. she doesnt know . i don't really have a lot to say so i just stood there and cry (my mom is driving so she can't see) and i can't stop thinking about it till now so i decide i want to write this
so i'm at my home now opened my computer scrolling on my friends facebook profile. my picture with them and just...cry...cause im not going to see them not so long...and to think that i'll be going to college there..makes me think college prob. around 3/4 years or more... so... highschool 2years=college =6 years
HOLY SHIT 6 FLIPPIN YEARS. I'LL BE 21 WHEN I GOT BACK HOME.
I don't want to go ... really ...and even the most beautiful country ever. i still don't wanna go ... do you know why?
I LOVE IT HERE..why do i love it here? BECAUSE MY FRIENDS IS HERE. :( yes . i love my friends sososo much i literally can't imagine leaving them . i know i will get new friends there,i will get good friends there ... but You can't replace anyone . even there's a new friend. you can' replace the old one . they are all original . they are all...................my friend
I MEAN .6 friggin years you kidding me?? i can't even imagine like 6 years ago i was freaking 9 and its SOSOSOSO long time ago .... and imagine that im gonna live SO FAR like in europe . and you can't just go back to indonesia anytime you want
even when i live in thailand i only got back home like once a year or twice a year... IMAGINE LIVING HERE.MUCH MUCH FURTHER . I WILL NEVER GOING BACK :( I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE I WILL CRY ALL DAY . I HATE GOODBYES. i hate it so much why does it need to exist..how do i say to my friends that i will leave like "hey im leaving you for 6 years okay, see you guys in 2019 or 2018 ..
My heart feels like it got stabbed now..
Rabu, 05 September 2012
Rabu, 30 Mei 2012
Teenager's immature stuffs...
i just want to point out a view things.i just wanna tell a lot of teenager's facts.and ive been in a teenager's "immature" life and have experience 85% of them.until i open my eyes and see the reality
and since im a teenager im still immature and change things a looooot.but i try not to take them too far
DATING
i just hate teenagers immature personality. and it always makes me puke inside when i see my friend dating and acted like they last forever and acted so cute like ...baby gooo goooo pumpkin pieee awwwww so sweet.
HA.HA stupid . they probably las less than 4 months. and even they last years. their relationship isnt as sweet as the first month.
i mean, dating is like trend .right. you feel like you wanna date someone and you get them and then when you get bored of it you leave them.cmon why are you dating? you guys are still immature and cant even take care of yourself. your mom is still telling you to brush your teeth.
the reason you wanna date is because you want happiness. they will end. and it ends with breakups and cries and tears and stuffs. and thats.not.happiness . Haha.yes you secretly wanna tell the whole world you have a boy/girlfriend . dont waste your young life by a useless pointless dating..and you guys just might end up doing something innapropriate.......
FRIENDS,BEST FRIENDS
your friends,or you probably have a group of friends,and if you don't,you're like me ,we should date ;)or be besties..lol xx
anyways, your friends,they have a group of friends who always hang out together and clarify themselves "besties" and the next month theyre not besties anymore and they hate eachother because they all fighting...mentally,duh.only boys do physically..sometimes.
and puhleaaaaseee just because you met 1 friend and you talked for a week or more and you find a lot of things in common. doesnt mean you will be besties forever..there are some side of your friends that you dont know.
people are like layers you know. some peal easily and some takes years,and revealing something more from them. you can't just say "yeah i chat with her for 3 weeks everyday,i know her" . -lisacim
you need to know what they like,love,dislike,hate and all of their feelings.
you know...people acted different here in the internet life. and you will always see a different side of them . and if you're one of them.you probably think that youre the only one . NOOOOOO a lot of your friends from your school are like you too.what u see on the outside is not what you see in the inside.
try to talk to them hang out and tell stories , they probably just like you!
INSECURITIES
99,9% of teenagers encounter this problem called insecurities.
"i dont deserve to live"
WHO SAYYYYYS you probably say that in the internet. and to have internet it requires electronic gadget and money. and you have them . homeless people will look at you like a rude jerk for saying that. you still have someone to love. could be from ur friends,family,cousin,internet friends idk. as long as you have that. you DESERVE TO LIVE
"nobody loves me"
HAHAHAHA yeah right. then agaain..you have internet,you have money. and the one who gives you internet is your parents. and they love you so u can have an internet.whats your excuse now? and if u dont trust nobody right now (your friends) just love your parents! give them your story,your trust.
your parents sacrifice more than your friends does.
"i have no reason to be smiling and happy right now"
once again. HAHAHAHA dont say that unless you:
dont have internet
dont have parents
dont have friends
dont have money
dont have foods
dont have home
dont have your dignity
"im so ugly,im not as pretty as other girls"
im not gonna laugh this time. but as so you know that the "pretty girls" are also insecure for how they look like.
and youre as stupid as them
listen,why should you be insecure?im 100% sure in your life you saw people who are uglier than you.and you're just like "oh another human passing by"
and why are you afraid to see people just because you think youre ugly? no one gives a crap on how you look.
just think when someone passing by in front of you ,you don't really care. but the person who passed by possibly think they're the ugliest human alive. but you dont think that , right?you don't even care.
so as the same you dont need to faken yourself to look like someone else. when WHO YOU ARE is already awesome
look at yourself on the mirror and see what you see, a beautiful human being . theres a lot of people who dont really have perfect body parts. and they are less insecure than you are. whats your excuses now?
and since im a teenager im still immature and change things a looooot.but i try not to take them too far
DATING
i just hate teenagers immature personality. and it always makes me puke inside when i see my friend dating and acted like they last forever and acted so cute like ...baby gooo goooo pumpkin pieee awwwww so sweet.
HA.HA stupid . they probably las less than 4 months. and even they last years. their relationship isnt as sweet as the first month.
i mean, dating is like trend .right. you feel like you wanna date someone and you get them and then when you get bored of it you leave them.cmon why are you dating? you guys are still immature and cant even take care of yourself. your mom is still telling you to brush your teeth.
the reason you wanna date is because you want happiness. they will end. and it ends with breakups and cries and tears and stuffs. and thats.not.happiness . Haha.yes you secretly wanna tell the whole world you have a boy/girlfriend . dont waste your young life by a useless pointless dating..and you guys just might end up doing something innapropriate.......
FRIENDS,BEST FRIENDS
your friends,or you probably have a group of friends,and if you don't,you're like me ,we should date ;)or be besties..lol xx
anyways, your friends,they have a group of friends who always hang out together and clarify themselves "besties" and the next month theyre not besties anymore and they hate eachother because they all fighting...mentally,duh.only boys do physically..sometimes.
and puhleaaaaseee just because you met 1 friend and you talked for a week or more and you find a lot of things in common. doesnt mean you will be besties forever..there are some side of your friends that you dont know.
people are like layers you know. some peal easily and some takes years,and revealing something more from them. you can't just say "yeah i chat with her for 3 weeks everyday,i know her" . -lisacim
you need to know what they like,love,dislike,hate and all of their feelings.
you know...people acted different here in the internet life. and you will always see a different side of them . and if you're one of them.you probably think that youre the only one . NOOOOOO a lot of your friends from your school are like you too.what u see on the outside is not what you see in the inside.
try to talk to them hang out and tell stories , they probably just like you!
INSECURITIES
99,9% of teenagers encounter this problem called insecurities.
"i dont deserve to live"
WHO SAYYYYYS you probably say that in the internet. and to have internet it requires electronic gadget and money. and you have them . homeless people will look at you like a rude jerk for saying that. you still have someone to love. could be from ur friends,family,cousin,internet friends idk. as long as you have that. you DESERVE TO LIVE
"nobody loves me"
HAHAHAHA yeah right. then agaain..you have internet,you have money. and the one who gives you internet is your parents. and they love you so u can have an internet.whats your excuse now? and if u dont trust nobody right now (your friends) just love your parents! give them your story,your trust.
your parents sacrifice more than your friends does.
"i have no reason to be smiling and happy right now"
once again. HAHAHAHA dont say that unless you:
dont have internet
dont have parents
dont have friends
dont have money
dont have foods
dont have home
dont have your dignity
"im so ugly,im not as pretty as other girls"
im not gonna laugh this time. but as so you know that the "pretty girls" are also insecure for how they look like.
and youre as stupid as them
listen,why should you be insecure?im 100% sure in your life you saw people who are uglier than you.and you're just like "oh another human passing by"
and why are you afraid to see people just because you think youre ugly? no one gives a crap on how you look.
just think when someone passing by in front of you ,you don't really care. but the person who passed by possibly think they're the ugliest human alive. but you dont think that , right?you don't even care.
so as the same you dont need to faken yourself to look like someone else. when WHO YOU ARE is already awesome
look at yourself on the mirror and see what you see, a beautiful human being . theres a lot of people who dont really have perfect body parts. and they are less insecure than you are. whats your excuses now?
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