did you ever feel how hard is it to leave someone you love? (specificaly im not talking about boys ok .. im talking about friends..)
so long my dad works in some place where every 2/3 years he will work out from this country for 3/4 years approx. idk...i went to a lot of country before but I loved thailand i miss living there..(since that's the only place i remember being there :s)
So i just got back from school (5th september 2012) and my mom suddenly said .if we go out again you're going to go to college in the country we will go . so i was like .. why is she saying this..so i asked ,why do you ask this? .and she said that my dad got gossips that he's going to berlin probably this year or next year..
I was in a moment of silence for real..because a couple of years ago he also got gossips he'll be going to berlin and it was real but it got cancelled cause he got promoted (moment of happiness)
Back to the story..so then i asked when. she doesnt know . i don't really have a lot to say so i just stood there and cry (my mom is driving so she can't see) and i can't stop thinking about it till now so i decide i want to write this
so i'm at my home now opened my computer scrolling on my friends facebook profile. my picture with them and just...cry...cause im not going to see them not so long...and to think that i'll be going to college there..makes me think college prob. around 3/4 years or more... so... highschool 2years=college =6 years
HOLY SHIT 6 FLIPPIN YEARS. I'LL BE 21 WHEN I GOT BACK HOME.
I don't want to go ... really ...and even the most beautiful country ever. i still don't wanna go ... do you know why?
I LOVE IT HERE..why do i love it here? BECAUSE MY FRIENDS IS HERE. :( yes . i love my friends sososo much i literally can't imagine leaving them . i know i will get new friends there,i will get good friends there ... but You can't replace anyone . even there's a new friend. you can' replace the old one . they are all original . they are all...................my friend
I MEAN .6 friggin years you kidding me?? i can't even imagine like 6 years ago i was freaking 9 and its SOSOSOSO long time ago .... and imagine that im gonna live SO FAR like in europe . and you can't just go back to indonesia anytime you want
even when i live in thailand i only got back home like once a year or twice a year... IMAGINE LIVING HERE.MUCH MUCH FURTHER . I WILL NEVER GOING BACK :( I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE I WILL CRY ALL DAY . I HATE GOODBYES. i hate it so much why does it need to exist..how do i say to my friends that i will leave like "hey im leaving you for 6 years okay, see you guys in 2019 or 2018 ..
My heart feels like it got stabbed now..
