I'm the biggest hypocrite of all time! and nope! i'm not gonna delete my embarrassing posts that i posted..
HOLY MOTHER OF LORD I'M A HYPOCRITE
but i mean we all are now. Aren't we? we're a bit guilty sometimes for being such a huge hypocrite.
And yes i might do the exact opposite of what i used to say. And yes! i do feel guilty!. But that's not stopping me from doing things i used to hate doing!.
HAHAHAHAH!
HA!
HA!
i hate myself
bye
Kamis, 10 Juli 2014
Sabtu, 16 November 2013
Little White Flower
Little white flower,
She wakes up everyday
With demons on her chest
Everyday she sees
a glimpse of her death
She secretly enjoys
Finding all the path
My dear flower,
You have found a place
To smile and to laugh
And no longer the demons
Will get in your bones
They have left
For you, Have won the war
And those that ran
Have mourned and regret
The loss
Of a Little White Flower
That they once forget.
She wakes up everyday
With demons on her chest
Everyday she sees
a glimpse of her death
She secretly enjoys
Finding all the path
My dear flower,
You have found a place
To smile and to laugh
And no longer the demons
Will get in your bones
They have left
For you, Have won the war
And those that ran
Have mourned and regret
The loss
Of a Little White Flower
That they once forget.
Kamis, 14 November 2013
I met you
I was awake at night
silence
it was slowly suffocating me
I met you
As I stare into your eyes
who knew
you would matter to me
you would found pieces of me
that was fallen apart
building me up again
giving me reasons to keep breathing
to smile
to wake up
without a swollen face
to make me whole again
to be happy
you might not know
and you might disagree
but I have built this door
just for you
inside me
and I will not hesitate
to let you in
and explore as you may
for i have a brittle heart
please dont break it
and I am sorry
if the voice
from the back of your head
ever said
my presence annoy you
if I'm self important
i complain too much
because i never
met someone
who i could be myself
and be happy
if you ever feel lost
like music misses it's tune
and if you ever feel lonely
like a flower misses the sunshine on a cold dark winter
if you ever feel,
the past is swallowing you
the dark is eating you alive
to the bones
I am seconds away
for me to protect you
and if I fail
Forgive me
for I am not perfect
But I am perfect enough to know
That I will try my best
to restore
your beautiful crooked smile
your imperfections
If you don't like yourself
if you hate you
that doesn't matter
because
I love you.
silence
it was slowly suffocating me
I met you
As I stare into your eyes
who knew
you would matter to me
you would found pieces of me
that was fallen apart
building me up again
giving me reasons to keep breathing
to smile
to wake up
without a swollen face
to make me whole again
to be happy
you might not know
and you might disagree
but I have built this door
just for you
inside me
and I will not hesitate
to let you in
and explore as you may
for i have a brittle heart
please dont break it
and I am sorry
if the voice
from the back of your head
ever said
my presence annoy you
if I'm self important
i complain too much
because i never
met someone
who i could be myself
and be happy
if you ever feel lost
like music misses it's tune
and if you ever feel lonely
like a flower misses the sunshine on a cold dark winter
if you ever feel,
the past is swallowing you
the dark is eating you alive
to the bones
I am seconds away
for me to protect you
and if I fail
Forgive me
for I am not perfect
But I am perfect enough to know
That I will try my best
to restore
your beautiful crooked smile
your imperfections
If you don't like yourself
if you hate you
that doesn't matter
because
I love you.
Kamis, 08 Agustus 2013
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I don't believe
in happiness they are just a vague overrated surreal thing that people seem to
crave for. I don't like emotions, They are fake. they make you feel you're
something else, makes you feel happy like you're special, makes you feel
sad that you wish you don't want to live anymore, makes you feel angry that you
want the world to just collapse, and the feelings that seemed so real,just vanish.
You
know, sometimes I feel empty, nothing, like
you don’t know what to do with your life, because your life is just shit
and plain.and it feels like if you die, nothing's going to happen, and
you're going to be happy. well, not happy, because logically
if you die you can’t feel happiness, you can’t feel anything. Nothing at all.
Maybe that is the thing that I wanted to feel. Nothing.
I close my
eyes momentarily . I see nothing, but I feel something. I see only blackness
from my eyelid, and see nothing but I can see calmness. I can see something.
Something beautiful. momentarily I
felt happy. Happy because of the silence . but
how do I know that I’m happy? when I don’t even know what happiness is. For a long time, I smiled. I don’t know why I
smiled. Maybe I was saturated all the time. Saturated from everything .
saturated from life I’m having that I forgot what beauty and happiness is. Maybe
this is beauty, but maybe it's not. I try not to believe in happiness and
got drown by it, as it is not real.
Sabtu, 30 Maret 2013
Living in a great life
So previous post i said im going to berlin. i actually am going to beijing,china. Im in an international school here.
So the title says "living in a great life" why do i say this? ok so previously i was upset that im leaving my friends.i try not to bring this up or else i'll be in tears. I do love my friends so much that i left them a short message before i leave (so cliche).And blablabla i'm now living in beijing now. I'm gonna talk about the school
im telling this in case you care.. haha that previously i went to the local high school in indonesia.and well..it was quite a bit of every emotion throwed up into together. there was so much love that i experience(then agian..not boys) and there was so much hate and sadness.
Well , before i moved here, i was afraid will i be living in a happy life?well here's the answer, yes.
there are ups and down about it so basically in my previous school every high school nightmare is in there. again..ifyoucare... I was sort of "bullied" in high school by some of my "popular" friends.
why? because i didnt have a lot of friends from my grade and i always go grab food alone and eat alone(no im not exaggerating,ask my old friend if ya dont belive me;P).here's are the things they did ifyoucare:
they made fun of me by making jokes about me
They once asked me if im their friends because i was playing with my friends from the lower grades.and they sort of intimidate me which sort of..insulting me in a different way where i ended up crying like a bitch
They always respond with a really unpleasant replies Unless they want something from me(since i sort of know musical stuffs and technology) they suddenly became nicer when they want something(wtf rite)
and i was always excluded from everything(my grade stuffs,almost everything..but im used to it kind of and thats why i was always rely on my juniors as my good friends because they love me (HAHA) no but seriously tho..they're better..WAAAAY),now this story is the one that breaks my heart THeeeee most,once my classmates wanted to go to a haunted house fun house thingy to have fun , and i was like "hey i wanna come too!" and they responded with a bitter smile and said yes i didnt think of anything negative that time so yeah.So i asked when do we meet and what time.they responded at 6pm at mcdonalds,so i waited there from 5-7 and i didnt see anyone then i texted them and they said that they already went to the place .with no reason i hear that they actually dont want me..(till this very day i don't know why..and the good thing is that i'm still in a good relationship with dem people that ditched me..) so i stood there and cried and i was reallyreallyrealllllyyyyyyy depressed
BUT LUCKILY.
where i'm living here now in (BWYA school) my friends are FANTASTIC!!! we're all the same there is no differentiate in our community. even tho not everyone can get along with everyone, they prefer to keep their opinions themselves. on worse cases its not going to be as worse as my old school lol.
I was greeted so nicely with friends and the boys are really nice(which doesnt work from where i'm from HA.) which is so mindblowing.people are so so so nice this is so amazing. im sure im gonna love going to school (exclude math and homeworks..i mean..who loves them anyways?) there are so much wonderful things i would like to tell but i can't seem to get it into words cause there are too many!!.
I already love my friends and it feels like i know them for so long(which is only a month..) i would love to say i love them but its too early! but i could..i would!!!
Don't give up in life guys.as u see from my previous life...it wasnt really good,was it? . no but here i am going uphill with my life! better and better. i almost lose hope in society and friends...until i came here. i knew god sent me here for a reason! (:
So the title says "living in a great life" why do i say this? ok so previously i was upset that im leaving my friends.i try not to bring this up or else i'll be in tears. I do love my friends so much that i left them a short message before i leave (so cliche).And blablabla i'm now living in beijing now. I'm gonna talk about the school
im telling this in case you care.. haha that previously i went to the local high school in indonesia.and well..it was quite a bit of every emotion throwed up into together. there was so much love that i experience(then agian..not boys) and there was so much hate and sadness.
Well , before i moved here, i was afraid will i be living in a happy life?well here's the answer, yes.
there are ups and down about it so basically in my previous school every high school nightmare is in there. again..ifyoucare... I was sort of "bullied" in high school by some of my "popular" friends.
why? because i didnt have a lot of friends from my grade and i always go grab food alone and eat alone(no im not exaggerating,ask my old friend if ya dont belive me;P).here's are the things they did ifyoucare:
they made fun of me by making jokes about me
They once asked me if im their friends because i was playing with my friends from the lower grades.and they sort of intimidate me which sort of..insulting me in a different way where i ended up crying like a bitch
They always respond with a really unpleasant replies Unless they want something from me(since i sort of know musical stuffs and technology) they suddenly became nicer when they want something(wtf rite)
and i was always excluded from everything(my grade stuffs,almost everything..but im used to it kind of and thats why i was always rely on my juniors as my good friends because they love me (HAHA) no but seriously tho..they're better..WAAAAY),now this story is the one that breaks my heart THeeeee most,once my classmates wanted to go to a haunted house fun house thingy to have fun , and i was like "hey i wanna come too!" and they responded with a bitter smile and said yes i didnt think of anything negative that time so yeah.So i asked when do we meet and what time.they responded at 6pm at mcdonalds,so i waited there from 5-7 and i didnt see anyone then i texted them and they said that they already went to the place .with no reason i hear that they actually dont want me..(till this very day i don't know why..and the good thing is that i'm still in a good relationship with dem people that ditched me..) so i stood there and cried and i was reallyreallyrealllllyyyyyyy depressed
BUT LUCKILY.
where i'm living here now in (BWYA school) my friends are FANTASTIC!!! we're all the same there is no differentiate in our community. even tho not everyone can get along with everyone, they prefer to keep their opinions themselves. on worse cases its not going to be as worse as my old school lol.
I was greeted so nicely with friends and the boys are really nice(which doesnt work from where i'm from HA.) which is so mindblowing.people are so so so nice this is so amazing. im sure im gonna love going to school (exclude math and homeworks..i mean..who loves them anyways?) there are so much wonderful things i would like to tell but i can't seem to get it into words cause there are too many!!.
I already love my friends and it feels like i know them for so long(which is only a month..) i would love to say i love them but its too early! but i could..i would!!!
Don't give up in life guys.as u see from my previous life...it wasnt really good,was it? . no but here i am going uphill with my life! better and better. i almost lose hope in society and friends...until i came here. i knew god sent me here for a reason! (:
Rabu, 05 September 2012
I'm Leaving (story+thoughts) :c
did you ever feel how hard is it to leave someone you love? (specificaly im not talking about boys ok .. im talking about friends..)
so long my dad works in some place where every 2/3 years he will work out from this country for 3/4 years approx. idk...i went to a lot of country before but I loved thailand i miss living there..(since that's the only place i remember being there :s)
So i just got back from school (5th september 2012) and my mom suddenly said .if we go out again you're going to go to college in the country we will go . so i was like .. why is she saying this..so i asked ,why do you ask this? .and she said that my dad got gossips that he's going to berlin probably this year or next year..
I was in a moment of silence for real..because a couple of years ago he also got gossips he'll be going to berlin and it was real but it got cancelled cause he got promoted (moment of happiness)
Back to the story..so then i asked when. she doesnt know . i don't really have a lot to say so i just stood there and cry (my mom is driving so she can't see) and i can't stop thinking about it till now so i decide i want to write this
so i'm at my home now opened my computer scrolling on my friends facebook profile. my picture with them and just...cry...cause im not going to see them not so long...and to think that i'll be going to college there..makes me think college prob. around 3/4 years or more... so... highschool 2years=college =6 years
HOLY SHIT 6 FLIPPIN YEARS. I'LL BE 21 WHEN I GOT BACK HOME.
I don't want to go ... really ...and even the most beautiful country ever. i still don't wanna go ... do you know why?
I LOVE IT HERE..why do i love it here? BECAUSE MY FRIENDS IS HERE. :( yes . i love my friends sososo much i literally can't imagine leaving them . i know i will get new friends there,i will get good friends there ... but You can't replace anyone . even there's a new friend. you can' replace the old one . they are all original . they are all...................my friend
I MEAN .6 friggin years you kidding me?? i can't even imagine like 6 years ago i was freaking 9 and its SOSOSOSO long time ago .... and imagine that im gonna live SO FAR like in europe . and you can't just go back to indonesia anytime you want
even when i live in thailand i only got back home like once a year or twice a year... IMAGINE LIVING HERE.MUCH MUCH FURTHER . I WILL NEVER GOING BACK :( I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE I WILL CRY ALL DAY . I HATE GOODBYES. i hate it so much why does it need to exist..how do i say to my friends that i will leave like "hey im leaving you for 6 years okay, see you guys in 2019 or 2018 ..
My heart feels like it got stabbed now..
so long my dad works in some place where every 2/3 years he will work out from this country for 3/4 years approx. idk...i went to a lot of country before but I loved thailand i miss living there..(since that's the only place i remember being there :s)
So i just got back from school (5th september 2012) and my mom suddenly said .if we go out again you're going to go to college in the country we will go . so i was like .. why is she saying this..so i asked ,why do you ask this? .and she said that my dad got gossips that he's going to berlin probably this year or next year..
I was in a moment of silence for real..because a couple of years ago he also got gossips he'll be going to berlin and it was real but it got cancelled cause he got promoted (moment of happiness)
Back to the story..so then i asked when. she doesnt know . i don't really have a lot to say so i just stood there and cry (my mom is driving so she can't see) and i can't stop thinking about it till now so i decide i want to write this
so i'm at my home now opened my computer scrolling on my friends facebook profile. my picture with them and just...cry...cause im not going to see them not so long...and to think that i'll be going to college there..makes me think college prob. around 3/4 years or more... so... highschool 2years=college =6 years
HOLY SHIT 6 FLIPPIN YEARS. I'LL BE 21 WHEN I GOT BACK HOME.
I don't want to go ... really ...and even the most beautiful country ever. i still don't wanna go ... do you know why?
I LOVE IT HERE..why do i love it here? BECAUSE MY FRIENDS IS HERE. :( yes . i love my friends sososo much i literally can't imagine leaving them . i know i will get new friends there,i will get good friends there ... but You can't replace anyone . even there's a new friend. you can' replace the old one . they are all original . they are all...................my friend
I MEAN .6 friggin years you kidding me?? i can't even imagine like 6 years ago i was freaking 9 and its SOSOSOSO long time ago .... and imagine that im gonna live SO FAR like in europe . and you can't just go back to indonesia anytime you want
even when i live in thailand i only got back home like once a year or twice a year... IMAGINE LIVING HERE.MUCH MUCH FURTHER . I WILL NEVER GOING BACK :( I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE I WILL CRY ALL DAY . I HATE GOODBYES. i hate it so much why does it need to exist..how do i say to my friends that i will leave like "hey im leaving you for 6 years okay, see you guys in 2019 or 2018 ..
My heart feels like it got stabbed now..
Rabu, 30 Mei 2012
Teenager's immature stuffs...
i just want to point out a view things.i just wanna tell a lot of teenager's facts.and ive been in a teenager's "immature" life and have experience 85% of them.until i open my eyes and see the reality
and since im a teenager im still immature and change things a looooot.but i try not to take them too far
DATING
i just hate teenagers immature personality. and it always makes me puke inside when i see my friend dating and acted like they last forever and acted so cute like ...baby gooo goooo pumpkin pieee awwwww so sweet.
HA.HA stupid . they probably las less than 4 months. and even they last years. their relationship isnt as sweet as the first month.
i mean, dating is like trend .right. you feel like you wanna date someone and you get them and then when you get bored of it you leave them.cmon why are you dating? you guys are still immature and cant even take care of yourself. your mom is still telling you to brush your teeth.
the reason you wanna date is because you want happiness. they will end. and it ends with breakups and cries and tears and stuffs. and thats.not.happiness . Haha.yes you secretly wanna tell the whole world you have a boy/girlfriend . dont waste your young life by a useless pointless dating..and you guys just might end up doing something innapropriate.......
FRIENDS,BEST FRIENDS
your friends,or you probably have a group of friends,and if you don't,you're like me ,we should date ;)or be besties..lol xx
anyways, your friends,they have a group of friends who always hang out together and clarify themselves "besties" and the next month theyre not besties anymore and they hate eachother because they all fighting...mentally,duh.only boys do physically..sometimes.
and puhleaaaaseee just because you met 1 friend and you talked for a week or more and you find a lot of things in common. doesnt mean you will be besties forever..there are some side of your friends that you dont know.
people are like layers you know. some peal easily and some takes years,and revealing something more from them. you can't just say "yeah i chat with her for 3 weeks everyday,i know her" . -lisacim
you need to know what they like,love,dislike,hate and all of their feelings.
you know...people acted different here in the internet life. and you will always see a different side of them . and if you're one of them.you probably think that youre the only one . NOOOOOO a lot of your friends from your school are like you too.what u see on the outside is not what you see in the inside.
try to talk to them hang out and tell stories , they probably just like you!
INSECURITIES
99,9% of teenagers encounter this problem called insecurities.
"i dont deserve to live"
WHO SAYYYYYS you probably say that in the internet. and to have internet it requires electronic gadget and money. and you have them . homeless people will look at you like a rude jerk for saying that. you still have someone to love. could be from ur friends,family,cousin,internet friends idk. as long as you have that. you DESERVE TO LIVE
"nobody loves me"
HAHAHAHA yeah right. then agaain..you have internet,you have money. and the one who gives you internet is your parents. and they love you so u can have an internet.whats your excuse now? and if u dont trust nobody right now (your friends) just love your parents! give them your story,your trust.
your parents sacrifice more than your friends does.
"i have no reason to be smiling and happy right now"
once again. HAHAHAHA dont say that unless you:
dont have internet
dont have parents
dont have friends
dont have money
dont have foods
dont have home
dont have your dignity
"im so ugly,im not as pretty as other girls"
im not gonna laugh this time. but as so you know that the "pretty girls" are also insecure for how they look like.
and youre as stupid as them
listen,why should you be insecure?im 100% sure in your life you saw people who are uglier than you.and you're just like "oh another human passing by"
and why are you afraid to see people just because you think youre ugly? no one gives a crap on how you look.
just think when someone passing by in front of you ,you don't really care. but the person who passed by possibly think they're the ugliest human alive. but you dont think that , right?you don't even care.
so as the same you dont need to faken yourself to look like someone else. when WHO YOU ARE is already awesome
look at yourself on the mirror and see what you see, a beautiful human being . theres a lot of people who dont really have perfect body parts. and they are less insecure than you are. whats your excuses now?
and since im a teenager im still immature and change things a looooot.but i try not to take them too far
DATING
i just hate teenagers immature personality. and it always makes me puke inside when i see my friend dating and acted like they last forever and acted so cute like ...baby gooo goooo pumpkin pieee awwwww so sweet.
HA.HA stupid . they probably las less than 4 months. and even they last years. their relationship isnt as sweet as the first month.
i mean, dating is like trend .right. you feel like you wanna date someone and you get them and then when you get bored of it you leave them.cmon why are you dating? you guys are still immature and cant even take care of yourself. your mom is still telling you to brush your teeth.
the reason you wanna date is because you want happiness. they will end. and it ends with breakups and cries and tears and stuffs. and thats.not.happiness . Haha.yes you secretly wanna tell the whole world you have a boy/girlfriend . dont waste your young life by a useless pointless dating..and you guys just might end up doing something innapropriate.......
FRIENDS,BEST FRIENDS
your friends,or you probably have a group of friends,and if you don't,you're like me ,we should date ;)or be besties..lol xx
anyways, your friends,they have a group of friends who always hang out together and clarify themselves "besties" and the next month theyre not besties anymore and they hate eachother because they all fighting...mentally,duh.only boys do physically..sometimes.
and puhleaaaaseee just because you met 1 friend and you talked for a week or more and you find a lot of things in common. doesnt mean you will be besties forever..there are some side of your friends that you dont know.
people are like layers you know. some peal easily and some takes years,and revealing something more from them. you can't just say "yeah i chat with her for 3 weeks everyday,i know her" . -lisacim
you need to know what they like,love,dislike,hate and all of their feelings.
you know...people acted different here in the internet life. and you will always see a different side of them . and if you're one of them.you probably think that youre the only one . NOOOOOO a lot of your friends from your school are like you too.what u see on the outside is not what you see in the inside.
try to talk to them hang out and tell stories , they probably just like you!
INSECURITIES
99,9% of teenagers encounter this problem called insecurities.
"i dont deserve to live"
WHO SAYYYYYS you probably say that in the internet. and to have internet it requires electronic gadget and money. and you have them . homeless people will look at you like a rude jerk for saying that. you still have someone to love. could be from ur friends,family,cousin,internet friends idk. as long as you have that. you DESERVE TO LIVE
"nobody loves me"
HAHAHAHA yeah right. then agaain..you have internet,you have money. and the one who gives you internet is your parents. and they love you so u can have an internet.whats your excuse now? and if u dont trust nobody right now (your friends) just love your parents! give them your story,your trust.
your parents sacrifice more than your friends does.
"i have no reason to be smiling and happy right now"
once again. HAHAHAHA dont say that unless you:
dont have internet
dont have parents
dont have friends
dont have money
dont have foods
dont have home
dont have your dignity
"im so ugly,im not as pretty as other girls"
im not gonna laugh this time. but as so you know that the "pretty girls" are also insecure for how they look like.
and youre as stupid as them
listen,why should you be insecure?im 100% sure in your life you saw people who are uglier than you.and you're just like "oh another human passing by"
and why are you afraid to see people just because you think youre ugly? no one gives a crap on how you look.
just think when someone passing by in front of you ,you don't really care. but the person who passed by possibly think they're the ugliest human alive. but you dont think that , right?you don't even care.
so as the same you dont need to faken yourself to look like someone else. when WHO YOU ARE is already awesome
look at yourself on the mirror and see what you see, a beautiful human being . theres a lot of people who dont really have perfect body parts. and they are less insecure than you are. whats your excuses now?
Selasa, 13 Desember 2011
I know you are more rude in the internet than real life
Title says it. So is that true? Im sure! yea!
mostly in youtube. 'cause thats when cyber-rude-people are all over !
so I just wanna say some words to you CRP(cyber rude people) HAHA lol i made that up
what are you doing silly?being mean to all of those people there on youtube saying negative comments.
Cmon are you serious?You are stupid because you are afraid to say that in REAL LIFE. I don't really think you have real life! haha jk :p
like ive said. treat people the way you wanted to be treated. SO. STOP SITTING IN FRONT OF YOUR LAPTOP LIKE STUPID AND MOCKING PEOPLE AROUND THE INTERNET.
If you can be nice then why can't be you be nice also in the internet?stop being mean . you stupid .. lol im mean
I owe it im huge different in real life and in the internet . BUT. In the internet life i never and will never leave comments bad stuffs and brokes someones heart . Because Im nice
Im so weird
bye
mostly in youtube. 'cause thats when cyber-rude-people are all over !
so I just wanna say some words to you CRP(cyber rude people) HAHA lol i made that up
what are you doing silly?being mean to all of those people there on youtube saying negative comments.
Cmon are you serious?You are stupid because you are afraid to say that in REAL LIFE. I don't really think you have real life! haha jk :p
like ive said. treat people the way you wanted to be treated. SO. STOP SITTING IN FRONT OF YOUR LAPTOP LIKE STUPID AND MOCKING PEOPLE AROUND THE INTERNET.
If you can be nice then why can't be you be nice also in the internet?stop being mean . you stupid .. lol im mean
I owe it im huge different in real life and in the internet . BUT. In the internet life i never and will never leave comments bad stuffs and brokes someones heart . Because Im nice
Im so weird
bye
Minggu, 11 Desember 2011
What have your mom been giving to you?
the title says it all.
i just wanna give a short message.. well the specific topic that ill be discussing is about your parents.
here's what your mom and what you did for the past couple of years on your life.
when you're 1 yr Mom gave you food to make you healthy
you throw up those foods
when you're 4 mom takes you on school
but you cry and mad 'cause you dont wanna
when you're 6 mom gave you pair of clothes
you reply them by throwing those clothes away 'cause you don't like it
when you're 12 you mom gave you cool phone gadget etc
you reply them by staying inside you room all day and let your mom be alone outside
when you're 14 your mom waiting for you to come home from school
but you reply them by running to your room with no conversation
when you're 18 your mom is worried about you at school
you reply them by shutting and locking your room and say "Don't bother me! Im Tired!"
all these days your mom gave everything for you. your mom sacrifice everything,taking care of you from 0 age till now. but you hate her,and you don't want her in your life right?most of you are
ONE DAY. when you're older.your mom will get older too.then you see her sleeping . but her body is stiff as eyes,her eyes are closed tight and will not gonna open again for you.She just left you forever
there will be no more smile you mom gave to you when you arrive from school,there will be no more tears from her because all of you mistake, there will be no more hug from her, no more her cute laugh
Please.. if your mom still here with you . hug her. Tell her that you love her and give everything you can to make her happy . a simple "I love You" can make her happy. so one day if she leave you. there will be no regret:)
i just wanna give a short message.. well the specific topic that ill be discussing is about your parents.
here's what your mom and what you did for the past couple of years on your life.
when you're 1 yr Mom gave you food to make you healthy
you throw up those foods
when you're 4 mom takes you on school
but you cry and mad 'cause you dont wanna
when you're 6 mom gave you pair of clothes
you reply them by throwing those clothes away 'cause you don't like it
when you're 12 you mom gave you cool phone gadget etc
you reply them by staying inside you room all day and let your mom be alone outside
when you're 14 your mom waiting for you to come home from school
but you reply them by running to your room with no conversation
when you're 18 your mom is worried about you at school
you reply them by shutting and locking your room and say "Don't bother me! Im Tired!"
all these days your mom gave everything for you. your mom sacrifice everything,taking care of you from 0 age till now. but you hate her,and you don't want her in your life right?most of you are
ONE DAY. when you're older.your mom will get older too.then you see her sleeping . but her body is stiff as eyes,her eyes are closed tight and will not gonna open again for you.She just left you forever
there will be no more smile you mom gave to you when you arrive from school,there will be no more tears from her because all of you mistake, there will be no more hug from her, no more her cute laugh
Please.. if your mom still here with you . hug her. Tell her that you love her and give everything you can to make her happy . a simple "I love You" can make her happy. so one day if she leave you. there will be no regret:)
Kamis, 17 November 2011
I found the most inspirational person EVAH
I just wanna tell you guys that ive found someone who's very inspirational..and..really she's my role model'
SHE'S Lisa cimorelli..from the cimorelli family.its not that i dont' like the others..I DO..but Lisa's personality ..especially her advice and her point of view ..is just the most greatest and amazing thing..i mean seriously you gotta see her! check her formspring too formspring.me/lisacim .. i mean she's 18..she has NO boyfriend and never had a boyfriend..she's saving her first kiss for her marriage..
AND SHE NEVER SWEARS..i mean WTF(whytheface) kids and ppl these day 99% of them swears..
but lisa and the rest of the family dont!! omgomg..amazing..
AND MOST OF ALL..HER VOICE IS FANTASTICAL AMAZINGAL and i dont even think amzingal is even a word...but who cares..
LISA I LOVE YOU
CIMORELLI I LOVE YOU! AAAHHH im nutss...i got rabies laowlaowlao ZOMGBBQPASTA . the cimorelli makes the music perfect
SHE'S Lisa cimorelli..from the cimorelli family.its not that i dont' like the others..I DO..but Lisa's personality ..especially her advice and her point of view ..is just the most greatest and amazing thing..i mean seriously you gotta see her! check her formspring too formspring.me/lisacim .. i mean she's 18..she has NO boyfriend and never had a boyfriend..she's saving her first kiss for her marriage..
AND SHE NEVER SWEARS..i mean WTF(whytheface) kids and ppl these day 99% of them swears..
but lisa and the rest of the family dont!! omgomg..amazing..
AND MOST OF ALL..HER VOICE IS FANTASTICAL AMAZINGAL and i dont even think amzingal is even a word...but who cares..
LISA I LOVE YOU
CIMORELLI I LOVE YOU! AAAHHH im nutss...i got rabies laowlaowlao ZOMGBBQPASTA . the cimorelli makes the music perfect
Selasa, 15 November 2011
Short Message For ya'll haters out there
Hey people. I just wanna give a short message to people who likes to hate.In my school theres a lot people who hate someone judging by their eye..point of view
"that girl wears to much make up"
"that girl style is so off-trend and are stupid as s*it"
"hahaha that girl have an imaginary friend,FREAK!!"
"that girl&boy always sits and walks alone..what a creep they don't have any friend" and tryna make fun of them
"YOURE FAT"
"YOURE SKINNY"
OH GOSH I swear i wanted to shout either slap nor cry at the same time to the person who said this.
I MEAN SERIOUSLY. ARE YOU PERFECT SAYING SUCH A WORDS?! ARE YOU BETTER THAN THEM?! cmon! HAVE YOU EVER LIVE LIVING THEIR LIFE BEFORE?! HUH?????
I saw a wise comment on youtube im not sure what it was.But..let just do this my way
"that girl wears to much make up" : You don't know how she's feels,feeling she's the ugliest and putting tons of make up just to make YOU say she's pretty
"that girl style is so off-trend and are stupid as s*it" You don't know that their parents are broke so she don't have enough money to buy them a new pair. UNLIKE YOU.
"hahaha that girl have an imaginary friend,FREAK!!" : You don't know that she cries in her room because their parents fight and she is stressed and don't have enough friend 'cause they thinks she's stupid
"that girl&boy always sits and walks alone..what a creep they don't have any friend" and tryna make fun of them : YOU DONT KNOW. That they have mental problem have comunicating with people and they always shy to talk to other people.Their parents try hard to make them have many friends.but it turns out u make fun of them!
"YOURE FAT" : You don't know she's going on a diet just to make them skinnier.LIKE YOU
"YOURE SKINNY" : You don't know she's have tons of pills eaten to make them fatter and stressed enough mocked in school as the skinny guy.
YOU NEVER FEEL HOW THE FEEL,UNLESS YOU LIVE THEIR LIFE.DON'T EVER JUDGE SOMEONE BY THEIR LOOK.LET KNOW THEM BETTER.THEN YOU CAN JUDGE
im so highly emotional right now..idk..i just..wanna shout thiss words in front of those haters face..
peace! bye
"that girl wears to much make up"
"that girl style is so off-trend and are stupid as s*it"
"hahaha that girl have an imaginary friend,FREAK!!"
"that girl&boy always sits and walks alone..what a creep they don't have any friend" and tryna make fun of them
"YOURE FAT"
"YOURE SKINNY"
OH GOSH I swear i wanted to shout either slap nor cry at the same time to the person who said this.
I MEAN SERIOUSLY. ARE YOU PERFECT SAYING SUCH A WORDS?! ARE YOU BETTER THAN THEM?! cmon! HAVE YOU EVER LIVE LIVING THEIR LIFE BEFORE?! HUH?????
I saw a wise comment on youtube im not sure what it was.But..let just do this my way
"that girl wears to much make up" : You don't know how she's feels,feeling she's the ugliest and putting tons of make up just to make YOU say she's pretty
"that girl style is so off-trend and are stupid as s*it" You don't know that their parents are broke so she don't have enough money to buy them a new pair. UNLIKE YOU.
"hahaha that girl have an imaginary friend,FREAK!!" : You don't know that she cries in her room because their parents fight and she is stressed and don't have enough friend 'cause they thinks she's stupid
"that girl&boy always sits and walks alone..what a creep they don't have any friend" and tryna make fun of them : YOU DONT KNOW. That they have mental problem have comunicating with people and they always shy to talk to other people.Their parents try hard to make them have many friends.but it turns out u make fun of them!
"YOURE FAT" : You don't know she's going on a diet just to make them skinnier.LIKE YOU
"YOURE SKINNY" : You don't know she's have tons of pills eaten to make them fatter and stressed enough mocked in school as the skinny guy.
YOU NEVER FEEL HOW THE FEEL,UNLESS YOU LIVE THEIR LIFE.DON'T EVER JUDGE SOMEONE BY THEIR LOOK.LET KNOW THEM BETTER.THEN YOU CAN JUDGE
im so highly emotional right now..idk..i just..wanna shout thiss words in front of those haters face..
peace! bye
Kid
so now when you're a teenager .somewhere deep inside you think you every age that are huge below you are "stupid". as in the word..don't have the same mind as ours..So everytime you talk to a below 8 year old, you prob. gonna say with the weird tone ,like all of the adults talk to little kids..You know... the tone where dora says in the tv show.. lol.
Well most of you gonna say "i can't get along with little kids,im a teenager" well it DOESNT makes sense dude. You WERE a little kids.how come you say you can't get along..see your mind when you're 7 were like..40% then when you're a teenager you are 70%. So you can think using the 40% of your mind to play with them..if ya know what i mean.well if you say "i can't get along with adults,im a teenager" well..that does makes sense..lol
guess what.in my spare time i spent thinking about life..and kids..well..I remember how i used to be a kid . play and have fun..OH such a memories. So I see little kids passed by and then i try to play with them and so that i get along!
here's how i do it. Now I close my eyes and imagine myself at that age and ALL of the memories from that age that i could remember. Then.other than thinking memories from that age I also Think the way-my-mind-think when i was that age too..
like I thought that monsters were real..and all of the gadget from kids next door on cartoon networks were real..So then i forgot all of my thought and mind from when im a teenager.and focused from when i was their age..
and I play with them..so it was COOL being a kid again having so much fun. and little kids may think us as a "friend" instead of a senior or big bro/sis..
haha! random..weird...but COOL!
Well most of you gonna say "i can't get along with little kids,im a teenager" well it DOESNT makes sense dude. You WERE a little kids.how come you say you can't get along..see your mind when you're 7 were like..40% then when you're a teenager you are 70%. So you can think using the 40% of your mind to play with them..if ya know what i mean.well if you say "i can't get along with adults,im a teenager" well..that does makes sense..lol
guess what.in my spare time i spent thinking about life..and kids..well..I remember how i used to be a kid . play and have fun..OH such a memories. So I see little kids passed by and then i try to play with them and so that i get along!
here's how i do it. Now I close my eyes and imagine myself at that age and ALL of the memories from that age that i could remember. Then.other than thinking memories from that age I also Think the way-my-mind-think when i was that age too..
like I thought that monsters were real..and all of the gadget from kids next door on cartoon networks were real..So then i forgot all of my thought and mind from when im a teenager.and focused from when i was their age..
and I play with them..so it was COOL being a kid again having so much fun. and little kids may think us as a "friend" instead of a senior or big bro/sis..
haha! random..weird...but COOL!
Random Update
today will be no wise words..havent think any wise words...been busy shooting with katy perry ..JK LOL. TW KATY IS COMING TO INDONESIA ZOMGBBQPASTA! the cheapest price is 66 bucks! dang it! im broke..I'M SERIOUSLY BROKE! ..i wanna watch katy.i swear i would cry if i dont make that concert...
Minggu, 02 Oktober 2011
Who needs BoyF/GirlF?!
Who needs boyfriend in my kind of age?14 for exact..
Dont you think BF is for our future husband?,i mean why do we need it now??Its not like we’re gonna get married soon?
Why do we fill our teenage/young life by focusing on love?
Im gonna focus on my dreamS. Until i reached my dream . then Ill find a BoyF and get marrief and share my “dream came true” ,with my futureHusband
Rather than wasting your young life for love and broken heart,youre not gonna focus on anything like school,dreams,family,friendship..WHY DO WE NEED BOYF NOW?!
Im gonna marry at the age of 23 or sumthin.Nad its like 9 years away, rather than wasting my 9 years of life searching for love and broken heart,why not search for future?,our dreams?
People said “We need boyfriend to support us and love us” WHY MUST BOYF?! Where you have family&bestfriends&friends to support you?
You want a kiss on your lips?a hug? why not save your kiss for someone special 9 years later?why not ask you bestfriend for a hug?it felt millin times better than getting a hug from a boy that maybe 3 years later youre not gonna be with him,and all of it is just a regret, and you’re broken heart thinking about him for years and years…when “years and years” you can spent by chasing you dreams?!
C’MON!!!C’MON!!!
well..except youre already like 20 or sumthin and ready to get married and share your dream-came-true with :))
regards,
anggie with much love xoxo
Senin, 26 September 2011
Keep hearing people mocking you are a freak?or feeling you are different than everyone else around you?
listen,Its okay to be different there is nothing "the same" here in this world , If everyone here is the same , then who's going to be different?
There is a boy,girl,gay,lesbian,transgendered,bi,ugly,cute,handsome,beautiful,amazing,creative
Everyone here in this world is different,and so are you
So if you been mocked by someone maybe saying youre "ugly" "freak" Think,you are not the only one who's ugly and freak in this world,there is someone uglier or freakier here in this world:D
and you're not like the other! you're "unique"
Or maybe,they are just jealous for who you are,maybe they wanted to be you so they mocked you because they r jealous
Don't ever be someone you are not,except be "you" but better.not be someone else
you r not alone! haha :D
kay??God make every people different.but they are all awesome and so are you.So just go out there and be yourself don't follow other people style. okay? ;)
listen,Its okay to be different there is nothing "the same" here in this world , If everyone here is the same , then who's going to be different?
There is a boy,girl,gay,lesbian,transgendered,bi,ugly,cute,handsome,beautiful,amazing,creative
Everyone here in this world is different,and so are you
So if you been mocked by someone maybe saying youre "ugly" "freak" Think,you are not the only one who's ugly and freak in this world,there is someone uglier or freakier here in this world:D
and you're not like the other! you're "unique"
Or maybe,they are just jealous for who you are,maybe they wanted to be you so they mocked you because they r jealous
Don't ever be someone you are not,except be "you" but better.not be someone else
you r not alone! haha :D
kay??God make every people different.but they are all awesome and so are you.So just go out there and be yourself don't follow other people style. okay? ;)
Rabu, 31 Agustus 2011
Over-Heating laptop/PC
Hey this anggi's original post , today we'll be talking about over heated laptop
So ..when you play wif your laptop Your laptop turns hot easily?and sometimes Your laptop's keyboard also producing hot air?
Well,Here is some tips and solution
Your problem is.first you have to know where is the air coming out,usually old laptop air thingy is under the laptop,but new laptop is on the side of the laptop, you must know it
so,here is the solution
Go buy a fan for you laptop , if you dont know,just ask the seller.he'll know
Dont play pwith Your laptop on your bed . This happens because your laptop is hot,then the hot air transfers in to you bed then The laptop get much more hotter.So play it on a hard surface
CLEAN!! , You know the ventilation or what ever idk whats the name is,its where the hot air come out usually on the side of the laptop or under it . It must be dirty and full of dust , so You must clean it , you must re-open the laptop just to clean it,if you cant go to a electronic store they usually charge for 150thousand IDR , yes expensive . If you don't want to you can do it youself
The reason why you must clean it its because the ventilation where the hot air is coming out is blocked by dusts so the hot air stays inside you laptop.making you laptop much much hotter and then it'll restart itself with no explanation
You can do this to your PC to.cleaning your PC is much easier you can open your PC (opening the screw and stuffs) and you see a giant fan with full of dust . clean it! its easier than cleaning your laptop:)
So hope this helps.!
*cheers* goodbye:)
So ..when you play wif your laptop Your laptop turns hot easily?and sometimes Your laptop's keyboard also producing hot air?
Well,Here is some tips and solution
Your problem is.first you have to know where is the air coming out,usually old laptop air thingy is under the laptop,but new laptop is on the side of the laptop, you must know it
so,here is the solution
Go buy a fan for you laptop , if you dont know,just ask the seller.he'll know
Dont play pwith Your laptop on your bed . This happens because your laptop is hot,then the hot air transfers in to you bed then The laptop get much more hotter.So play it on a hard surface
CLEAN!! , You know the ventilation or what ever idk whats the name is,its where the hot air come out usually on the side of the laptop or under it . It must be dirty and full of dust , so You must clean it , you must re-open the laptop just to clean it,if you cant go to a electronic store they usually charge for 150thousand IDR , yes expensive . If you don't want to you can do it youself
The reason why you must clean it its because the ventilation where the hot air is coming out is blocked by dusts so the hot air stays inside you laptop.making you laptop much much hotter and then it'll restart itself with no explanation
You can do this to your PC to.cleaning your PC is much easier you can open your PC (opening the screw and stuffs) and you see a giant fan with full of dust . clean it! its easier than cleaning your laptop:)
So hope this helps.!
*cheers* goodbye:)
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Sabtu, 30 Juli 2011
Move on
Moving on means you are stepping forward to the future. Moving on could be living in a new house,new girlfriend,new boyfriend or anything else!
I found teenagers cant move on their X-boyF and X-GirlF
You have to move on?why??
wasting your teenager life thinking about someone who never think about you are a waste of time they're not worth it! Its time for you to step forward living in a new life. You must leave all the past behind. everything its just the past. Do you feel comfortable in this position? if not its time for you to move on to somewhere comfortable for you.
The past is just the past
if you cant move on.Its lke you are walking forward but your head are looking behind..
if you love him/her so much. You must be able to let him/her go for someone he/she loves. even if its not you :)
let time flow and you will find someone better:)
dont ever leave someone who loves you for somone who you liked
Lets enjoy our young life for something better.You are only young once and lets use it for something useful instead of wasting for "someone"
thank you for your time to read , regards,anggi! :)
I found teenagers cant move on their X-boyF and X-GirlF
You have to move on?why??
wasting your teenager life thinking about someone who never think about you are a waste of time they're not worth it! Its time for you to step forward living in a new life. You must leave all the past behind. everything its just the past. Do you feel comfortable in this position? if not its time for you to move on to somewhere comfortable for you.
The past is just the past
if you cant move on.Its lke you are walking forward but your head are looking behind..
if you love him/her so much. You must be able to let him/her go for someone he/she loves. even if its not you :)
let time flow and you will find someone better:)
dont ever leave someone who loves you for somone who you liked
Lets enjoy our young life for something better.You are only young once and lets use it for something useful instead of wasting for "someone"
thank you for your time to read , regards,anggi! :)
Kamis, 28 Juli 2011
Dear Teenagers,Lets Read this!
HELLO!!,this is anggi and i like to share you a short message,please read it!pure my hand writing no copy paste from anywhere else ;)
Dear teenagers,
be more "adult"ish will ya? its time for you to be more adult than you are now. Its not wrong you are a teenager.Its right! go have fun! but you can not have too much fun
Lets talk about parents,
You ever shouted to your parents?talk them behind?pointing finger behind?or mocking inside of your mind?
Listen,Stop saying on twitter or facebook or somewhere saying "i wanna die" "i wanna run away from this house,this house is worthless" "i hate my parents" "I dont need my parents"
Lets see what "our" parents did for us,and what us did for them for the past couple of years
When you were 1,your parents gave you expensive food to make you healthy
you replied them by puking,and throw them food on the floor
When you were 4,your parents take you to a school with their money they earned
you replied them by refusing to go to school
When you were 6 your parents gave you expensive clothes
then you replied them by saying "i hate this clothes i dont want to wear it!!"
When you were 10 your parents droped you on school
you replied them by running away because you are embarrased of your parents droping you off
When you were 12 your parents worried about you on school ,are you okay,are you fine,are everything okay?
you replied them by going home late playing with your friends leaving you parents/mom alone in the house WORRYING about you
When you were 13 your parents greets you after schol
you replied them by running to your room "later im tired i dont want to talk about it"
When you were 14 your parents bought you electronical stuffs like phone,computer etc. for your happiness
you replied them by playing all day long inside your room without having conversation with your parents and leaving them alone without you
Dont you realize how much you parents sacrifice for you,and dont you realize how do you "replied" all of your parent's sacrifing?
now. TELL THEM, "I LOVE YOU" and kiss them on their cheek
and respect them for they are your parents and forever will sacrifice for you.
Tell them all your loving words instead of you mocking words, before its TOO LATE
before they leave you FOREVER.
and for you who said "i can live without my parents" "i wanna run away" "i hate my parents"
Will you care think about it for moment?
regards , ANGGI
Dear teenagers,
be more "adult"ish will ya? its time for you to be more adult than you are now. Its not wrong you are a teenager.Its right! go have fun! but you can not have too much fun
Lets talk about parents,
You ever shouted to your parents?talk them behind?pointing finger behind?or mocking inside of your mind?
Listen,Stop saying on twitter or facebook or somewhere saying "i wanna die" "i wanna run away from this house,this house is worthless" "i hate my parents" "I dont need my parents"
Lets see what "our" parents did for us,and what us did for them for the past couple of years
When you were 1,your parents gave you expensive food to make you healthy
you replied them by puking,and throw them food on the floor
When you were 4,your parents take you to a school with their money they earned
you replied them by refusing to go to school
When you were 6 your parents gave you expensive clothes
then you replied them by saying "i hate this clothes i dont want to wear it!!"
When you were 10 your parents droped you on school
you replied them by running away because you are embarrased of your parents droping you off
When you were 12 your parents worried about you on school ,are you okay,are you fine,are everything okay?
you replied them by going home late playing with your friends leaving you parents/mom alone in the house WORRYING about you
When you were 13 your parents greets you after schol
you replied them by running to your room "later im tired i dont want to talk about it"
When you were 14 your parents bought you electronical stuffs like phone,computer etc. for your happiness
you replied them by playing all day long inside your room without having conversation with your parents and leaving them alone without you
Dont you realize how much you parents sacrifice for you,and dont you realize how do you "replied" all of your parent's sacrifing?
now. TELL THEM, "I LOVE YOU" and kiss them on their cheek
and respect them for they are your parents and forever will sacrifice for you.
Tell them all your loving words instead of you mocking words, before its TOO LATE
before they leave you FOREVER.
and for you who said "i can live without my parents" "i wanna run away" "i hate my parents"
Will you care think about it for moment?
regards , ANGGI
Rabu, 29 Juni 2011
Teenager's Life Inspiration
HELLO!!,this is anggi and i like to share you a short message,please read it!pure my hand writing no copy paste from anywhere else ;)
We are Teenagers.We are NO longer a member of the kids next door. Instead,we are the enemies of kids next door.okay its getting to make no sense...ok back to the topic.If you feel you dont have a good life,read this.I HOPE this will give you some inspiration. and
Dear Teenagers,
What are you doing? How old are you ?14?15?16? . Did you ever once think about you..wasting your life? girls.stop Thinking about a guy that broked your heart.Get over it,It doesnt mean that without HIM you dont have a life?Hes just a normal human,so are you,he's not worth it.
Stop thinking wheter you look cool smoking weed or not,look cool drinking alcohol and stuffs.nobody cares.Look back when you were just a little kid.You look nice,cute,looks like have a bright future,But look at you now.youre a smoker.bad ass smoker,an alcoholic,drunken man,What will your parents/future childern/very old old friend think about you now? Look at your picture when you were just a baby,clean,holy,nice. And look at you NOW
Stop being depressed. Everything have a positive side. God never give you something you cant handle. God is testing you are you strong or not. Now proof to god that you are STRONG,YOU ARE STRONG! . and justt be happy! Youre only young once this is the tima where you can have fun and forget about everything that oesnt make you happy
now...GO OUT AND HAVE FUN! HAVE A BRIGHT FUTURE GUYS
-regards mightyme!
We are Teenagers.We are NO longer a member of the kids next door. Instead,we are the enemies of kids next door.okay its getting to make no sense...ok back to the topic.If you feel you dont have a good life,read this.I HOPE this will give you some inspiration. and
Dear Teenagers,
What are you doing? How old are you ?14?15?16? . Did you ever once think about you..wasting your life? girls.stop Thinking about a guy that broked your heart.Get over it,It doesnt mean that without HIM you dont have a life?Hes just a normal human,so are you,he's not worth it.
Stop thinking wheter you look cool smoking weed or not,look cool drinking alcohol and stuffs.nobody cares.Look back when you were just a little kid.You look nice,cute,looks like have a bright future,But look at you now.youre a smoker.bad ass smoker,an alcoholic,drunken man,What will your parents/future childern/very old old friend think about you now? Look at your picture when you were just a baby,clean,holy,nice. And look at you NOW
Stop being depressed. Everything have a positive side. God never give you something you cant handle. God is testing you are you strong or not. Now proof to god that you are STRONG,YOU ARE STRONG! . and justt be happy! Youre only young once this is the tima where you can have fun and forget about everything that oesnt make you happy
now...GO OUT AND HAVE FUN! HAVE A BRIGHT FUTURE GUYS
-regards mightyme!
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